There was this time when I was in 3rd grade and had three different 3rd grade teachers in the same year, four if you include the long-term substrate I had when one of teachers was on a safari in Africa for half of the school year. I was so confused that entire year about what I was even supposed to be learning let alone making friends that I would not see much longer. Now that I am a 20 year-old college student with so much life ahead of me that the scared 3rd grade boy does not even compare to how scared I am now.
As a college student that has now heavily devoted his time here to the institution in which I have now called home for the past two years, I am shaken to the core that this is now the time where I have to spread my wings and jump further out of the nest I have now been sitting in. My laundry list of dedications, devotions, and commitments runs long but I feel that I can’t trap myself at such a young age with being complacent of all the I have accomplished.
I always tell myself that my biggest enemy sometimes can be me. Which is a lot of pressure to put on yourself. If you think of all the things that you could have been or should have done and how to always out-do yourself you run yourself to the ground tired and sometimes feeling defeated. I am not stating that I don’t have goals or ambitions but I am scared because I have two great fears; being complacent and FOMO (Fear of Missing Out).
I never want to think that I am okay where I am at because as my high school principal always said, “It is all about how do we get better.”, and this has always stuck with me since the day I graduated. You can always be better and continue to work for greater without looking at how to outshine or out-do your previous achievements. This is something that I have come to realize and improve upon.
It doesn’t have to be drastic. It doesn’t have to be instantaneous or even happen over night, but what are you doing to be better than you were yesterday?
P.S. In case you were curious about that list of commitments:
- VCU Mass Communications Public Relations Student
- Urban Outfitters Sales Associate
- Resident Assistant of VCU Residential Life & Housing
- Community Council RA Advisor
- VCU Student Media Center Commissioner Board Chair
- Students Today Alumni Tomorrow Marketing and Communications Director
- VCU Peppas Pep Band Trombonist
- VCU S.A.V.E.S. member
- Show Choir Choreographer and Show Designer